A Tentative Return, or more Questions than Answers.

If anyone is still out there, “Hello.” If not, well here I am again. It’s been a long time between drinks as it were and I thought that it was about time I paid a visit to WordPress world. Life goes on, people come and go and interests change. Do I still write novels? No. Have I read any? Nope, not a thing in over two years. I bought several last year, they’re still unopened on the nightstand. Sad I know but that’s how things are. Do I still take photos? Yes indeed, they’re better than what I’ve posted on here in the past. Will I be putting up heaps of them every week? Probably not, one or two to share and chat about will be my limit. It’s taken a lot of deep thought, foreign I know, for me to come back. My reason for dropping out last time was to do with my mental health. I have a tendency to focus on something then do it to the nth degree, no matter what it is. In retrospect I’ve done it with every pastime I’ve taken up. In one way it made for good outcomes, in another it took me away from everything else. As you may or may not know PTSD has been my constant companion for many years. Somewhat like Sisyphus pushing the boulder uphill to have it roll back down again. Just when you think you have it beat, wham it’s back to the beginning. Yet I’m still grateful for my life and the good people I have around me, well the ones who understand.

So what am I going to do here? To be honest I’m not quite sure. I know that I’ve missed my interactions with followers/friends. Of course the longer you stay away from something the easier it is to convince yourself that it doesn’t matter. Sadly that’s been the way of my life. I’ve moved that often and been in different jobs and losing/letting go of people just seems natural. I’m on Instagram at the moment, laurie7521, another interest to focus on. Where will the return of the Prodigal lead? Maybe the answer will be found next week.

Here’s a Poppy from my garden.

 

 

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66 thoughts on “A Tentative Return, or more Questions than Answers.

  1. Mary Strong-Spaid

    Well Laurie, I hope you come back and blog from time to time. We have a lot in common. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2001. When something upsets me, my desire to write goes out the window and my creativity vanishes like smoke. I haven’t written much this year because of this. I try not to let too many months go by. Do you remember? Back in 2013, I wrote about a bluebird who insisted on living in my newspaper holder. https://storieswithnobooks.com/2013/10/13/bluebird-house-with-chandelier/
    And then, you sent me a link about frogs that insisted on living in your letterbox (which attracted a snake).
    https://laurie27wsmith.wordpress.com/2013/02/07/its-a-mailbox-not-a-restaurant/
    You made me laugh! My story was calm compared to yours. You outdid me, to be sure! I hope you write something again soon.๐Ÿ˜‡

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Hi Mary, great to hear from you. I’ve already answered once and I think it may have gone astray. I’m sorry to hear that ptsd has ruined your desire to write. I nipped over and had a look at your bluebird story. It’s a lot sweeter than my snake/horror story. Will I come back? Not sure really but never say never.
      Take care Mary.
      Cheers
      Laurie.

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Not too bad Jane, just avoiding the inevitable task of slowly sliding away fro wordpress. Thank you, it’s nice to be missed. I haven’t been much of a WP friend the past couple of years. if you’re on Instagram you’ll find me as laurie7521
      Cheers
      Laurie

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      1. Jane Risdon

        Oh so sorry you are fed-up with WP – you had such a loyal following. Where to find you now? I have Instagram but have never used it other than to look at family photos posted by them. Hope your health is good/better and life in general kind. Miss you lots. xxx

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      2. laurie27wsmith Post author

        I think I was just fed up with everything in general Jane. My whole life has been spent moving on, from homes, family, friends and jobs. Never going back or keeping in touch. Sad really. Well the only place I am is Instagram, I’m on FB but only keep it for messenger. Take care Jane. xxx ๐Ÿ˜

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  2. Wordifull Melanie

    Laurie! You have been missed even though i must admit I’m rarely on WP these days. Still so good to see you! Love the texture you captured in the poppy ๐Ÿ™‚
    Hope you are feeling better/stronger. Hugs to you and your lovely missus.

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Melanie, sweet Melanie how are you? Missed indeed, it’s been tough making the decision to come back but now I have to make something of this. Glad you liked the poppy, even I was impressed with the texture. (New lens) I’m feeling better, lost weight and looking forward to a healthier life. The missus says hi.
      Cheers
      Laurie.

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      1. Wordifull Melanie

        I’m doing pretty well. So much has changed since last we spoke… divorced, moved to a different state, lost some weight…to name a few ๐Ÿ˜‰ Yay on the new lens, can’t wait to see more of your gorgeous pictures. I’m glad you are back BUT no pressure… post what you want, when you want. IF/when you make it something you HAVE to do it becomes work and sucks the joy out of it.

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      2. laurie27wsmith Post author

        This is good to hear Melanie. It looks like a huge change in your life and change can be a good thing. Plus losing weight is also good, I’ve dropped 16 kilos, yay! Yes I love my new lens, it’s ramped up the quality by a mile. It’s nice to know that you missed me. ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m going to have to put a lot of thought into my decision but at the end of the day I’l have to contend with whatever I put up. Work sucks at any time, unless you love it. ๐Ÿ™‚ Take care of yourself.
        Hugs
        Laurie.

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  3. liz blackmore

    Hey Laurie! So nice to see your handiwork in pen and photos back!
    Believe it or not, you were on my mind last week and I was going to see if I could get ahold of you. Voila! Here you are.
    You have been missed and I am glad that you are pushing forward!
    Big hugs to you!

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Liz, my Dear how good to hear from you. I must have been putting the vibe out there, getting under people’s skin as it were. ๐Ÿ™‚ It seems I have been missed, it’s kind of like old home week on here. I guess forward is the only way to go. :=)
      Even bigger hugs to you Liz.
      Cheers
      Laurie

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Hi Jo, thanks so much. I’m just testing the waters as it were. I’m not on twitter anymore and haven’t been on FB so I’m not all that social at the moment. But I’m always happy to chat.
      Cheers
      Laurie

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  4. Ernest Swain

    Hi Laurie, great to have you back. Like all your friends, I’ve missed you. Take things easy my friend and don’t do too much.

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Thanks so much John, it’s great to know that you’re still out there. How’s the carriage driving going mate? All good I hope. It’s so good to hear from you.
      Cheers
      Laurie.

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  5. Patrons of the Pit

    We I’ll be dipped. It’s like your favorite dead puppy coming back to life! Good to hear from you old boy, it is indeed. Yup, many people come and go out of our lives. That’s just how it is. Like shooting stars across a dark sky. It is the same here in the blogosphere, it seems. Some stars are brighter than others, and they come and go. Your star was always among the brightest I’d wager, and here now your orbit has come back around again, if but for a moment or two, illuminating the faces of those who have missed you. Good to see you, Laurie! I’d lift a drink to you, but I have none. And I don’t drink either, come to think of it. So hugs from Minnesota will have to do.

    Cheers mate,

    PotP

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      That’s me, the dead puppy, quite accurate actually. Good to see that you’re all still grilling and cooking. A great analogy, the whole star thing. It’s nice of you to put me up there with the brightest. Hugs from Minnesota are okay, I have about one glass of beer a week and it’s lovely.
      Cheers to you
      Laurie.

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  6. Owls and Orchids

    Hey there my friend,
    It looks as though we both fell through the cracks there. Wonderful beyond measure to see your post and would love to bring you up to speed with all the happenings here.
    I see you on Instagram and yes, the photos are brilliant. All I have is gravel and high fences boxing me in here. Quickly being starved for the sky or some grass. A long story if I could tell it. Hope to finally deliver my research – no I haven’t forgotten it just fell into the wait a whole pile.
    Best always. Susan x
    Stay well Laurie. You’ve never been far away in my thoughts.

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Hey Susan, sometimes those cracks are so big that it’s hard not to fall through them. Good to see that you’re following your work, I do hope it helps you on your journey. Yeah, instagram is my new addiction I think. Nice to be thought of Susan. Keep well yourself.
      Cheers
      Laurie.

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  7. davidprosser

    The poppy photograph is wonderful Laurie but it’s overshadowed by your return-FANTASTIC. Needless to say you’ve been missed but I totally understand the reason for your withdrawal before and like so many others wish I could have helped. Take whatever time you need, come slowly or come fast but just come again.
    Hugs

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  8. nataliescarberry

    Oh my gosh! I was just thinkng about you the other day and wondering where the hell you were and what you were doing!!! What a delight to find this tonight, Sir L.
    I’ve missed you terribly! And what amazing photos you graced us with upon your return. I pray all is well with you and hope that you stick around awhile. You have always been one of my favorite people on the planet my friend. Love, love, love and hug, hug, hug from LMS ๐Ÿ™‚ โค โค โค

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      1. nataliescarberry

        Hey hey Sir L! I used your bee photograph on one of posts today and put your name and website under it. Hope that’s still okay! Yes we are safe here. Hurricanes have only come as far inland as where we live in north central Texas as long as I’ve lived here which is over 50 years now. We did about 4 and a half inches of rain thus far north though. Since you left us my daughter and her family have moved to Colorado Springs which was very sad but James and I have been on our own before. Tragedy struck one of my grandsons and that had been hard on all of us. He was sexually assaulted by a youth pastor at their church when he was 10 years old but had suppressed the trauma until about two years ago. He began cutting himself eventually, delved into inappropriate sexual sites online, started stealing things, and finally attempted suicide three times before he had to be hospitalized for his own safety. He was there from last September until January if this year. It was there that psychological tests through up all kinds of red flags that he had been sexually molested several times. He was 15 by then and it took awhile to bring to the foreground of his mind so they could begin to help him deal with it. He is doing well but the damage had been profound and though he is better, there are still darks days and hurdles to overcome! He suffers from PTSD as a result and they may be a lifelong thing for him it seems as will the memories of what happened. I adore this child! We all do! I know our prayers have been answered over and over again and for that we are all so grateful! I struggle with not wishing the most horrible things to beset this man but I know that’s the Lord’s business and not mine. My biggest prayer is that some how some he be stopped from EVER doing this to another child. Night night Sir L! I hope you have a wonderful day down under! Love and hugs, LMSโŒโญ•๏ธโค๏ธ

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      2. laurie27wsmith Post author

        No worries about the bee pic LMS, use what you need. ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s heartening to know that all is well weather wise where you are. It’s a different life when all the children leave home. Your grandson. Oh my that is terrible and I can honestly say that I know exactly how he feels. Life can throw some rubbish at us and the end results can affect not only the victim but those around them. All I can say is if he’s strong enough he will survive this. Love and support is what he needs and I’m sure he’ll be getting it in spades from you. The perpetrator? Well I’m sure that somewhere along the line he’ll be brought to some form of justice. I’m glad to hear that you are stepping back from wanting the old hell fire and brimstone thrown around. I guess there’s a higher power involved in life. You take care LMS and thanks so much for being the lovely person you are.
        Cheers
        Sir L.

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      3. nataliescarberry

        It is always my pleasure to spend time with you Sir L!!! Almost from the get go you began carving out a special place in my heart and prayers! And I love the person you are and the fact that suffered even more than my precious Alex and rose up so well out of the fires of hell! I have great respect and admiration for you my friendโฃ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜˜

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Thanks beth, great to hear from you and know that you’re still out there. I think that I overextended myself last time, I’ll pace myself this time but I must do the rounds and see what’s happening. Cheers…Laurie

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  9. Pagadan

    Laurie, So nice to hear from you! I came across an old post or something somewhere the other day and thought of you. Gee, I miss Laurie, I said to myself. I’m not on Instagram, but I love the photos you shared.

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Hi There Joy, and so nice to hear from you. No wonder my ears have been burning lately. I can always post from instagram to here. Thanks for being a good friend. Cheers. Laurie

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  10. aurorajeanalexander

    I missed you Laurie! It’s good to hear from you! Unfortunately I don’t have an Instagram account since I’m not taking many pics and in particular not from me. But it would be great seeing you on here more often again, or on FB. โค

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    1. laurie27wsmith Post author

      Hey there AJ. You don’t need an account to look at the pics, just google my account. Anyway, FB I’ve been avoiding for a couple of personal reasons but I’ll try and post here more often๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ˜™

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